The only thing that has ever hurt this much would be my mum passing away. That's how much this fucking hurts.

I can't eat, I probably won't sleep, I feel sick, I keep getting shaky and crying loads.

Fucking horrible.

lonely.

So Nick has gone away to Bestival. Him being away as a whole I'm not bothered about. We both work full time so we don't see loads of each other as it is. But there is something about laying in an empty bed when you're used to having someone to share it with. I can't explain it, but if any of you have been there you'll understand. It's just a horrible feeling.

I am terrible at remembering to update this thing. I apologise.
I'll fix that soon, promise.