Inpiration.

 So, chatting away like I do, and I’ve realised, out of all the friends I have, and people I know, only one person inspires me truly in my life. And that’s Lewis (Porter), he is the only person I really know that is following his dream, making so many sacrifices to do what he wants to do.

He may hardly ever be around, And I really don’t get to see him much, but he is doing what he loves, every single day, hour, minute that he can.

And I’m so proud of him for all of that.

The only thing that has ever hurt this much would be my mum passing away. That's how much this fucking hurts.

I can't eat, I probably won't sleep, I feel sick, I keep getting shaky and crying loads.

Fucking horrible.

lonely.

So Nick has gone away to Bestival. Him being away as a whole I'm not bothered about. We both work full time so we don't see loads of each other as it is. But there is something about laying in an empty bed when you're used to having someone to share it with. I can't explain it, but if any of you have been there you'll understand. It's just a horrible feeling.

I am terrible at remembering to update this thing. I apologise.
I'll fix that soon, promise.

Day 1.

Day 1. Favourite song.

Jimmy Eat World - Here It Goes

I can't post mp3's on here like tumblr so I'll be typing everything up, which makes it less fun. But hey.

30 day song challenge.

01. Your favorite song (post an mp3 if you can!)
02. Your least favorite song
03. Your favorite artist/band
04. Your least favorite artist/band
05. Favorite song lyrics
06. Your top played song on iTunes/your music player
07. Your top most played artist on iTunes/music player
08. A song that describes your childhood
09. A song that describes your parents
10. A song that describes your siblings/other family members
11. A song that describes you right this moment
12. A song that describes your tumblr
13. A song that describes who you want to become
14. A song that reminds you of the happiest moment in your life
15. A song that reminds you of the saddest moment in your life
16. A song that makes you cry
17. A song that makes you smile
18. The song that you’d want to be playing in the background when you meet your soulmate
19. A song that you love to sing along to
20. Your guilty pleasure song
21. A song that you love to dance to
22. A song that relaxes you
23. If your life was a movie, what would your soundtrack be?
24. Dedicate a song to someone special in your life.
25. Songs that you’d like to have with you on a desert island
26. The theme song from your favorite TV show
27. A song that you could listen to over and over
28. A song that you think is over played.
29. Your favorite “seasonal” songs. (a summer song, winter song, spring song, & fall song)
30. A song that you want to share with the world.

I'm going to try & do this, but I may forget about it.

The days go by oh so slow.

I've just realised how quickly this year has gone. September starts tomorrow. That means it's now only about 116 days til Christmas, how depressing is that? At work that means we now start taking Christmas bookings. Fucking joy. Halloween & Bonfire night first, but still. It would be nice for one day to just be nice & slow, so I could savor every minute of that day, but it's not going to happen. I would love just one of those days this year. Someone want to give me one?

I have a lot on my mind atm too, just weird feelings, things I'm not sure what to do about them. But oh well, my problems, not yours =]